Loose Women presenter Andrea McLean has bravely opened up about hitting rock bottom last year during a live interview on the hit ITV show.
The TV host says she considered taking her own life in 2019 after feeling out of her depth with the struggles of life.
Andrea has penned her darkest moments in her new book This Girl is on Fire – with host Ruth Langsford revealing her co-star considered taking her own life as she introduced the segment.
Speaking frankly, Andrea, 50, said: "It is scary to write a book about this as you are literally poking a wound you have managed to get to heal over.
"I have a notebook I carry everywhere and I wrote the prologue on my bedroom floor after a call from a friend who was just moaning about the same things she has for years.
"I was like s**t happens. This book is for women who are stuck and not doing anything about it – It does get better."
Revealing how it was her time on a TV show that started her downward spiral, Adrea continued: "What happened to me was that I went on SAS Who Dares Wins.
"During filming there is a moment when you have a black bag over your head.
"When this bag was ripped off to me it was as if my mask was ripped off."
She added: "What I was going through when I came back was that all the traumatic things I have had in my life that I had moved on from, put in a box and thought dealt with came back.
"When I did SAS, the box opened and I couldn't get everything back in there."
Keen to make sure her friend and co-star is on the up, Janet Street Porter probed: "You've always presented this face that everything is in control… but now I know you were actually falling to pieces behind the curtain.
"What have you put in place to stop you falling through that again?"
Andrea replied: "I know I come across as Mrs Stepford Wife and I am not just doing that any more.
"I am not just smiling and taking the short end of the stick.
"If I don't like something I will speak out.
"I was afraid to speak out before for lots of reasons.
"Some of it was that I didn't want people not to like me but now I don't care if people like me or don't.
"I also now say if I am not happy or I am starting to feel strange… we tend to put other needs first before our own but now if i've overbooked myself for a day then I will say and say I need to take a step back."
Loose Women airs weekdays on ITV at 12:30pm
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