KIM Kardashian admitted she "HATED how she looked" while she was pregnant and claimed the body-shaming trolls "killed her self-esteem."
The mom-of-four revealed the mental toll pregnancy took on her when she was carrying her two oldest children.
Kim, 40, is mom to daughters North, 8, and Chicago, 3, and sons Saint, 5, and Psalm, 2 – her two youngest were born via surrogate.
During an appearance on Kristen Bell and Monica Padman's podcast, We Are Supported By, the reality star confessed how "brutal" the trolls were on social media regarding her weight when she was pregnant with North.
Kim explained: "I was not a good pregnant person. I was not a cute pregnant person. I did not like it. I hated it. I hated how I felt. I hate how I looked.
"I was so used to seeing my mom pregnant, my sister pregnant and everyone looking so cute and having these easy deliveries and life was great and they snapped right back. That wasn't me," she continued.
The KKW Beauty founder detailed how the scrutiny made her feel insecure as she was battling several serious health conditions that added to her weight gain.
"I had this condition called preeclampsia and I didn't know that I had it. It's over-swelling in your feet and face. I had to deliver six weeks early with an emergency delivery and then I had another condition called Placenta accreta with both of my babies. It was insane."
After much backlash with her appearance during her first pregnancy, Kim admitted that she hid in the garage when she was pregnant with her second child out of "embarrassment."
"We didn't have a gym or anything and I was too embarrassed to go to a gym because I didn't want people to look at me trying to lose weight. I gained 70 pounds.
"I would sit in my mom's garage and it was literally probably 115 degrees in Calabasas in the summertime. I'd have my daughter in a stroller and I'd sit her in there and I would just workout in the garage and try to do anything I could until I did it," she added.
Despite the harsh criticism she faced, the model acknowledged the good in the situation saying: "it changed me as a person."
"It really did change me and it made me really pull back on what I shared and just how much I wanted to give because I saw how nasty everyone was and it felt so bad," she said.
Kim shares her four children with estranged husband Kanye West who she has since filed for divorce.
Kanye's life advice
Also during the podcast episode, the aspiring lawyer recognized her ex for renewing her confidence in herself.
She said: "I used to care about the likability.
“I got to a point — and maybe being in a relationship with Kanye for a decade and someone that absolutely didn't care about likeability factor or what any of perception of him was as long as he was true to himself — that taught me so much in the best way, of, just being me and living in the moment."
The Keeping Up With the Kardashians star added that Kanye taught her that "you don't have to please everyone."
She continued: "As long as I'm myself and as long as I'm doing it the way that I want to do, like, you have one life and you're living it for you.
"That taught me to just, I think, be more confident in myself and truly not care as much of what other people thought."
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