KATE Ferdinand admitted she's "gets so nervous" when she shares new photos of baby Cree on Instagram.
Rio Ferdinand's wife gave birth to their first child almost four weeks ago and has been updating fans on her progress as a new mum on social media.
But Kate, 29, confessed that she has flashes of doubt after releasing a snap to her 1.4 million followers, saying she isn't sure why but the reservations are still there.
The ex Towie star said: "Instagram has been a really positive place for me in the last few weeks but for some reason whenever I post anything I get so nervous.
"I'm not exactly sure why, but I start regretting posting straight away. Does anyone else feel like this?
"I love this picture of me and my big boy so I don't know what I would be nervous about but the feelings are still there."
Back in 2019 Kate documented her journey to self-acceptance in her book Fitter Happier Healthier: The Ultimate Body Plan, alongside her favourite recipes and a four-week exercise regime.
She spoke about her battle with worrying, body dysmorphia, anxiety and cripplingly low self-esteem.
During her darkest days she’s suffered debilitating panic attacks and even hair loss.
She told The Sun back in 2019 that it was only in the last few years since meeting and falling in love with Rio Ferdinand and becoming stepmum to his three children that she’s managed to find some peace.
She said: "Ever since I was a teenager I’ve been fighting this internal battle with body dysmorphia. I’ve always thought I looked bad and it’s only in the last two years I have been able to rethink what’s important and what isn’t.
"I’ve learned to accept myself, but it’s been a hell of a journey. And I’m still on it. I still have bad days, but I never thought I would get to this point. It is like stripping yourself back and finding out what makes you happy and what doesn’t.
“I feel like Rio and the kids were a massive part in all of this. I’m now a mum and after everything they’ve been through in their lives, me worrying about my cellulite really isn’t the top of the list any more.”
Kate’s own issues began in her early teens when she started experiencing mood swings brought on by the Pill, which she was taking to help her acne.
“I wasn’t a nice teenager,” she says. “I was angry and wild and out of control. I’d run away from home, get caught and have to come back.
“But when you’re caught up in body dysmorphia and you don’t like yourself, you can’t see a way out. I always felt I looked bigger or different from other girls. It has been a long process to get to the point I’m at now."
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